i have a painful confession. i just had the urge to e-stalk someone online today. and seeing the stuff there makes me feel that i am a fucking asshole who almost made the world a more fucked up place for someone just for my own advantage. i'm a selfish fucker, thats what i call it. i feel so fucking bad i swear. that person didnt deserve it, he probably didn't do anything wrong and i came along hopefully to have what he had. what the hell was i thinking.

god please forgive me.